This is all I have done today. I have just put it aside as my brain just doesn't want to function to work out the layout of the next row round - despite having it shown on paper in the pattern. The fabrics are from the charm pack I bought last month and aren't working brilliantly together in this pattern. Ah well. The cats will enjoy sitting on it!
I am feeling so low today - I have no energy for anything, no desire to do anything and I just feel lonely. I had to force myself to work on the table topper. I have just gotten Robert McFarlane's The Old Ways on Audible, but I wasn't enjoying that either as it required concentration (sadly missing today). I have several of his books, but have only dipped into rather than read as his style isn't a relaxing one to read. I felt the same about Hilary Mantel and Wolf Hall.
I managed to find ITV live racing on my computer, so can watch the Cheltenham Festival next week.
I can't face a 2nd night of Tortellini and pizza topping, so have made a Pizza base which has just come to dough in the bread maker. I can't be bothered to make that either, but will have to force myself and force myself to eat some too.
I must take a leaf out of Sue in My Quiet Life in Suffolk's book and count my blessings:
Mainly the 'oscopy is behind me and no worrying signs.
I am going to see Tam and Rosie tomorrow.
I have kind and helpful neighbours.
Hah - I have a fabric stash to keep me going for years, at the rate I sew!
I have four lovely cats who adore me.
I have a wonderful family who would do anything for me.
I am going to Copenhagen next month and will finally see Bog Bodies for the first time :)
The sun has shone a couple of days this week and I got out in the garden.
I have seeds to start and plants to plant.
Sorry you're feeling low. But you have T & R to look forward to. Blessings are valuable but sometimes loneliness takes over. "Better days ahead!"
ReplyDeleteYour quilt block is lovely, beautifully made! And I saw on my blog that you got your Janome fixed---you fixed it yourself? When you feel focused, keep going, the fabrics are so pretty.
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I took it to my Quilting class to get our teacher Alex to have a look at it. Mostly needed oiling and I need to keep an eye on any other threads accumulating there. I have since oiled it more thoroughly at home. Fabrics pretty enough but because I am down I can't appreciate them!
DeleteSounds like you've got the winter doldrums. Maybe one you can get out in the fresh air you will hopefully feel differently.
ReplyDeleteCats (and bladder demands) got me up at 6 a.m. First birdsong is so beautiful. Another grey day but will try and make the most of it. It will be a joy to see my darling Rosie.
DeleteOh gosh absolutely. I need to get out, but will be doing that tomorrow when I drive to Tam's. It's quite a drive (50 + miles each way) but lovely through the mountains. I hope it doesn't rain!!
ReplyDeleteIt's not fun to be down in the dumps. In fact it's downright miserable. I expect you sometimes feel like you are doing things just to fill in time. I think it takes much longer than people realize to settle into a new way of living after the death of a partner. You are a capable woman and have already done the smart thing by counting your blessings. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteI watched soothing tv last night and that helped a bit. My life only feels "right" again when I have my family here.
DeleteWell, you did more than I have done. I moved Flossie last night and it was a struggle. Today I paid for it by sleeping mostly, but watching Crufts too.
ReplyDeleteWho the hell is Flossie?!!! I'd forgotten Crufts was on. Will have to catch it on iPlayer.
DeleteI’m sorry you’re feeling low and lonely. It’s very hard to appreciate anything when these feelings overtake you. Tomorrow is going to be lovely so I hope that will be the catalyst for better days.
ReplyDeleteHave you ever read Meet me at the Museum by Anne Youngson? It’s a novel with an element of truth in its origin and is in the format of correspondence beween a British woman and a curator at Silkeborg museum in Denmark, where Tollund man is on display. I heard a radio dramatisation, which I enjoyed, but not actually read the book. A very poignant story. Best wishes, Charmaine
Thank you for the book recommendation Charmaine. I've made a note of it and will try and get it from the Library. Just checked it out on Ebay and it's cheap enough to treat myself, so have just ordered it. I like the sound of "uplifting, joyous and hopeful". Just what I need right now.
DeleteHah - reading that you see how quickly Aries leap in!!!
DeleteI hope that you are feeling more upbeat very soon. I was just exhausted last week, but the sun is shining today and I feel so much better. We all need to count our blessings in this weird time we are living in.
ReplyDeleteGod bless.
I have woken up feeling a bit brighter. Counting blessings does help and truly, I will never run out of fabric stash . . .
DeleteThat is quite a list of happies, Jennie. I totally get it though. I feel like I am constantly being knocked off balance.
ReplyDeleteYes, trying not too think too deeply about what is happening in the wider world right now. Not happy thoughts those . . . Let's hope Iran gets lucky and one of their hit men takes Trump out.
DeleteSorry you are feeling a bit low. I'm a bit the same here I'll be glad when summer is over it was 39C yesterday and has been very hot for so long but hopefully a change is on the way 24C forecast for Tuesday and 26c Wed.
ReplyDeleteI felt the same about reading Wolf Hall but loved the TV series and watched the first series again before watching the second series and no doubt will watch it all again in the future.
I recently re bought Pride and Prejudice and Wuthering Heights as mine have taken a walk, I want to lend them to my 14 1/2 yr old twin granddaughters I've been a bit remiss the last few years when they and their older siblings and cousins were younger I used to buy box sets of all the classics like the Secret Garden and Ivanhoe etc:-
Sorry this is so long, the quilt block is lovely glad you have taken it up again. From Shirley in Perth.
All that heat would do for me. It was bad enough here in the UK last year in the upper 20s (humidity is no fun). I preferred the tv series of Wolf Hall et all and it's good on Audible, just very constipated writing to read!
DeleteWell done for keeping the classics alive. I have only read WH once, in my 20s, but have read Jane Eyre several times. P&P is a joy too. I am looking forward to The Other Bennet Sister which finally airs on tv soon.
Don't apologise for long replies. Love them!
The quilt block turned out reasonably, considering how down in the dumps I was, and I can live with not quite perfect 1/32" out in two spots . . .
I'm glad you've woken up today feeling more hopeful.
ReplyDeleteSomeone had mentioned that 'Meet me at the Museum' book before and when I saw it at one of the Autumn book sales I picked it up - it's still sitting on my shelves waiting!
Onwards into the week
Today was a much better day - lots of Rosie cuddles for starters. Ah, we will have to read this book and compare notes.
DeleteThe Amish say only God is perfect and I say close enough is good enough, it's like paintings they look really good from a distance. The other Bennet Sister happens here in mid May so like you am looking forward to that. I'm 3/4 of way through the Ken Follet book, am enjoying it. Shirley in Perth.
ReplyDeleteWell for sure, my quilts would never offend God's eye as never perfect!!! I thought you would enjoy the Ken Follet book. I am looking forward to the Other Bennet Sister as the snippets I've seen were very amusing.
DeleteThat will be fun grisly bog bodies to look at. Am glad you have started to count your blessings, a wonderful family is of course the most valued.
ReplyDeleteThey gave Tam the heebie-jeebies! When she went to the British Museum, Jonty I think it was tried to take her into the room where Lindow Man was but Tam wasn't having it.
DeleteA wonderful family is definitely top of the list.
No matter how many blessings you count they never quite fill the void. Fighting against sadness is exhausting. Just roll with it til the moment passes as it will. A 50 mile drive through the mountains sounds perfect.
ReplyDeleteToday was a good balance for yesterday. It was good to get out and see Rosie and Tam, and Tam making progress on Rosie's room so that she can move into it soon.
DeleteHaving the 'black dog' sitting at your shoulder is no fun, as you say counting your blessings helps and I make myself do something (anything) to make me move. I've had news about my friend who was so poorly last year is again very ill. I'm dreading the phone ringing. But brighter things, we have Baby C tomorrow and the school run to do. Hugs Xx
ReplyDeleteThere's nothing wrong with taking time out. Look after yourself.
ReplyDeleteI am normally quite a cheerful person, but grief is another matter. I am so sorry to hear about your friend and hoping it doesn't mean an awful phone call. I hope Baby C is good tomorrow (and not too many poohey nappies!)
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