Monday, 23 March 2026

Into battle!

 


This is the Iron Age sword, one of only three in the country of this type, and two of them are in Wales, which was found locally to Builth Wells, but the owner doesn't wish to say exactly where (even though it was found 30 years ago) in case there are metal detectorists all over his land.  The other sword was found not far away, at Cwmyoy, up near Llantony Priory in the Black Mountains.  It has been examined closely by Cardiff Museum, who think that both swords came from the same maker.  How exciting to have proof of the Iron Age presence around Builth, although obviously they were all over Wales and indeed Britain. Many hills round here have hill forts on top of them. I hope you can read the details below.




Well, I have had a stressful few days.  For the past week or so, Alfie hasn't been eating his biscuits.  I have bought several different sorts, getting ever more expensive.  I have had to give him all sorts of different sachets - he was very fussy over those - but now we are on the Sheba (expensive) sort, in gravy he is wolfing those down.  I was worried sick it was end-game Kidney problems - the boys are 16 this year.  I have been losing sleep worrying about him, and so off to the vet it was today.  He had the full blood test (e.g. that is the most expensive sort too) and it included Thyroid function.  The vet has just phoned back to say can I bring him down tomorrow as their blood machine threw a hissy fit (as it does sometimes) and recorded he had no red bloodcells . . .  So Poor Boy, he has to go back tomorrow morning for more bloods so we get the full picture.  From what they took, Thyroid function seems good and although Urea levels above average, Kidney function seems just within limits but we will have the full picture tomorrow and he will probably have to have a change of biscuits (I have 4 packs of the Purina Urinary care ones, which he can't eat at present).  However, he DOES have Gingivitis and very inflamed gums and is booked in next week for scaling and possible tooth removal.  This is all really going to hit my bank account - nearly £400 with the op, today's examination and blood test.  Jeepers.  I will have to put a red light over the door at this rate!!  It is just as well I have a full freezer and lots of tins in the food cupboard.


So this morning to take my mind off things I went out and had a good clearing of the area at the end of the bank, just before it reaches the pond.  There are three "raised beds" here, and I may as well use them so have been cutting back wild briar roses and brambles, and hoiking out the Lemon Balm and Marjoram which was everywhere.  I will need more bags of bark - £10 each I noticed, when I went to Hay and Brecon Farmers to get more wooden pellet cat litter.  Ah well, needs must.

I had to really be brave to take Alfie to the vet, because having to deal with the possibility of him having to be pts had turned me inside out.  I just cannot deal with the thought of death yet. Losing Keith is still so close to the surface of my memory.  I had to bite my lip and control my breathing so as not to  burst into tears at the vets, and have been crying on and off this morning.  When the time does come, it will be here at home, after the ghastly experience with a terrified Theo, who was so scared with the background noises (heavy slamming doors etc) and fought the anethstetic.  That still haunts me.  Keith would always come in with me and tell me to sit outside when the time for the final injection came.  I find it very difficult to have to stand up and be counted now and go in alone when the time has come.  With Ghengis it was obvious he needed to go immediately, and I coped better with that.  Danny was here then too, and dug his grave and buried him for me. Being brave is hard.



30 comments:

  1. I can understand why you are finding things so difficult at the moment. Being brave is, indeed, hard.

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    1. I ran out of it when Keith was so ill. I'm not sure if I'll ever really get brave back.

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  2. I cradled my Gwennie in my arms as she slowly went to sleep. That was over 26 years ago and it still haunts me. Being brave is the price we must sometimes pay for loving so deeply.

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    1. It is truly awful to lose an animal you love so. Not being able to explain to them. You are right though, being brave is the price we pay for loving so well/

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    2. that goes for loving human animals too

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  3. I bawled like a baby when we had to put Jasper to sleep. I do hope you get good news from the vet, if only for the sake of your bank account. Its taken me and OH 4 attempts to get a worming tablet down Sheva, but we won in the end and she has taken herself upstairs looking extremely annoyed with us. I won Granny points today as had bought a pack of raspberry Magnums, Iris's favourite and Baby C was chatting away to us, he's such a different baby to when they got him. Take care. Xx

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    1. It's heartbreaking when the time comes. It seems mostly teefs - and guess who's noticed L. Whale doesn't eat his biscuits at the moment either . . . I wonder if they do a bulk booking discount?! Getting wormers down cats isn't easy . . . I bet Iris will appreciate Granny's treat, and so glad that Baby C is making such good progress. Well done.

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  4. I think we find brave when we need it. Fall apart later, sure, but in the moment the brave is there inside us. Sometimes there's just no choice.

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    1. Hello Denise. I think you're right there, but it means digging deep and suffering after . . .

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    2. I think Denise has it exactly right. It comes when we need it most. The bravest people I know do not see themselves as courageous. They see themselves as people who found themselves in a spot where there was no other option.

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  5. I hear you. I've had a right month of vet bills too. One of my cats got into a fight and ended up with an absessed tail so that required vetinary attention, then my other older boy went in for teeth cleaning, and then a neighbor found a dead poisoned cat in his yard and so my boys no longer roam for an hour or two in morning which necessitated the purchase of a wire enclosure we'll call the 'catio'. All in all, over $2000 and it's not over yet. My oldest boy (16) is not looking well and, like you, I will have to deal with the dread of the 'pts' visit sooner rather than later which always ends with me bawling at the vets. Good luck to you. I've been reading your blog for a while as a lurker from the USA.
    Ess

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    1. Hello and welcome Ess. Yup - struck a nerve with you too. Abscesses on tails normally drain well once burst and I have treated at home, bathing with salt water (have to do the same with L. Whale's pad which has split open again. He doesn't enjoy it though. We lost a young cat to poisoning (brother of L. Whale and Alfie) and I can see why you had to fork out for the "Catio". I would do the same. Nice to meet one of my lurkers.

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    2. I’d imagine veterinary staff is accustomed to people bawling when saying the final goodbye to their beloved pets… Occupational hazard, to be sure…

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  6. When we had to put Shania to sleep, I just could not go in. Harvey took her and I cried all the way home (35 miles). We buried her under our cherry trees. It is very hard to be brave and this is why we will not get another pet.

    God bless.

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    1. I always find it so hard and hate crying in public. My cats bring me so much comfort and are great company (if worrying at times) and I wouldn't be without them.

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  7. The hardest part of letting go is letting GO. When my beautiful Natasha (a tiger/Siamese mix) developed cancer and it was time, my daughter and I were led into a darkened room with a lit candle, where we were able to hold her until WE felt it was time. She had already had a pic line installed and given a wee bit of tranquilizer to calm kitty fear. Out on the front desk a candle had also been lit and there was a small sign asking people to keep their voices down as there was a solemn passage behind the closed door. When finally, daughter and I decided it was time, we pushed a button and the vet aide came in and added the dreaded drug into the pic line and Natasha slowly took her last breath. A week or two later, the Vet's office sent me a condolence card stating a donation in her name had been sent to the local Humane Society. They tried to make the whole ordeal as painless as possible, but it still brought me to tears for so many months after, missing her so much. It is never easy and even grown men cry at the loss of a dear pet. We will feel your pain.

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    1. Hello Ana - you have a good vet. Natasha must have been a beautiful cat. I wish that Theo had had the same experience at the end.

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    1. Thanks Susan. It is just a tooth cleanup job at the moment, hopefully, so harder on the pocket than the emotions. He is sat right beside me now, and was beside me all night too.

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  9. I knew exactly when the time was right to let my beloved terrier go almost two years ago. My vet was superb, a quiet room where my dog fell into a peaceful and well deserved sleep. Best boy for almost 17 years and remembered with love every day. My late husband and I raised him from a puppy. And the room where he was put to sleep had its own exit to the car park so no need to walk into the reception area. A very kind and thoughtful vet practice who sent cards of condolence afterwards.

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  10. Losing beloved animals is very hard, yet they do not suffer when the time comes for departure from this world, only us.

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    1. Well, hopefully he's with us for a while yet. Otherwise having his teeth cleaned is a waste of time.

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  11. Hopefully once Alfie's teeth are dealt with he will be back to crunching his biscuits.
    We are currently going through all the same with Ginger, who is also 16 years old. We took him to the vets because of his worsening arthritis, and he had the full blood tests last week, they showed he is right on the cusp of liver and kidney functions being normal for his age, but also showed that he has an over-active thyroid, hence him eating such a lot and losing weight. He is now on medicine for his arthritis and his thyroid, which once under control a bit more will be being removed in a few weeks or months before it can put any additional pressure on his heart. He's the last of our little gang of three, so it will be hard if we lose him. :-(

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    1. It's a worry as they get older - like us, the diseases of old age show their faces. Hoping Ginger is a bit more comfortable now.

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  12. Thinking of you, it’s so tough when our precious pets get old and poorly.
    Alison in Devon x

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    1. Thanks Alison. It is a worry. Hoping his dental treatment will make eating more comfortable anyway.

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  13. I am so sorry and sad you have to face this alone. Dear Alfie, he has been a part of your life and so loved. My little Baby Mo went so fast and I am still crying, I miss him so much. It's like a little sweet ghost haunts me now. You ARE brave. And you will make the best kindest choices for the pet you love. Email me if you need a shoulder to cry on, time difference and I also am usually awake.
    hugs.
    lizzy
    PS on first scroll by, I thought you found the iron age sword in your garden!

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    1. It's hard, but my family are great at support. Of course you are still missing Mo. We can't stop loving them can we? Thank you for saying to email you. You are a good friend.

      I wish I HAD found that Iron Age sword in the garden!!

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    2. My dad found a flint arrowhead in his potato patch once. It was beautiful.

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