Sunday, 30 August 2026

Still down in the dumps and Synchronicity

 I woke an hour before the alarm.  It is dry but we have had a goodly amount of rain and everything is grateful for it.  A green blush everywhere now.

I am busy with needle - my gardening jeans developed a tear on the other leg, so, pretty patchwork to cover it . . .


First I sew a strengthening patch on the inside of the leg to cover the torn area and then the pretty patches on the outside.  This should last a while now anyway.

I have also started sewing Rosie's x-stitch for Christmas which is a Puffin.  I have a Puffin I bought in a charity shop, and it is looped over a candle on the mantlepiece.  Rosie loves it, so I thought I would make her one for herself.  Nothing to show yet as I am just doing the black back of it but it is quick to stitch and I had the colours I needed in my stash, although the dark tangerine is one number out but near enough not to matter.


Synchronicity.  I watched the latest (well, 2020) movie of Rebecca this week and it just so happened I decided to buy a paper yesterday and it just so happened that this article was in it!  There is a new biography about Daphne du Maurier by her grandson, which will hit the shops next month.  I will try and see if I can get it through the Library as at £25 it is too big an indulgence to buy.  I have another biography on her and don't think he will uncover much fresh ground, especially as her diaries cannot be accessed before 2039 (50 years after her death).  It's called Last Night I Dreamt, and is by Paul de Zulueta, in case you are interested.

I am enjoying Running for the Hills, but he has his mother arriving on her own, a local taxi all the way from Abergavenny! and arriving at a freezing house and wishing there was a stove.  Well, surely there MUST have been some form of heating - an open fireplace at least - or else the last owners couldn't have lived there. She foolishly pulls out all the bits of newspaper and disgusting old rags which were stuffed in the walls and bitterly regrets it the first time there is a gale, which howls into the house through all the gaps in the walls!  I have memories of returning from Keith's brother's after going there for New Year, and our old house would be SO COLD - it was like walking into a fridge.  The first thing we did was to light the big Hergom stove, which in those early days was multi-fuel and ran on wood or coke.  It devoured wood like there was no tomorrow and I can remember Keith cutting up a fallen oak tree which barely lasted 6 weeks for fuel . . .  I also remember wondering why on earth there were the lids of (probably baked bean) tins nailed at intervals along the skirting boards . . . this was a simple and efficient way of keeping the rats out . . .

I think part of the reason for being down in the dumps is because Keith's mobility scooter is going.  With it go such sad memories of when he could barely get about and going to Malvern was such a challenge for him.  He would have had it months earlier had not Tam encouraged us to try and get funding for ex-military personnel.  It took over 6 mths - and we didn't get it in the end - and we had to declare each and every single expenditure, which was very uncomfortable to do, as you lost all privacy.  All that has returned to haunt me.  Today's challenge will be trying to reverse it backwards up the ramp, heaviest bit first, then turning it off to lower the steering column and somehow heaving it into the other vehicle.  I am glad the chap buying it will be there to do the strong-arm tactics!  We have arranged to meet half way, which makes life easier anyway and I can get some bits of grocery shopping afterwards - cat food from B&M Bargains.

Last night I was watching History Cold Case USA - a couple of programmes, where they try and trace the ancestry and identity of long-dead skeletons (over 150 years ago).  It was really interesting and amazingly they did manage to identify one young couple buried together in one coffin - she died first of cholera and her husband just a couple of days after.  Another was a Native American Indian from the West Coast, who had travelled across America and ended up buried in New York state, a Christian burial at the fort where he had been a soldier.  

Right, this won't do.  Time to get myself tidy to go out. Update: chap buying scooter had great idea of using the ramps to make a bridge between our vehicles.  Some disassembling required, but it worked a treat.  Phew!  

17 comments:

  1. I’m sorry you’ve been feeling down, and hope that releasing the scooter ultimately removes the reminder of sad days and makes you feel lighter… Glad that process went smoothly!

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    1. It feels like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I have been trying to sell the mob. scooter for so long and no interest. We took the seat off and folded the front down to get it in his car. It only needs to be moved once again and that's to his holiday caravan. He was delighted, which is such a positive.

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  2. Onwards and upwards Jenny. Keith would be pleased the scooter has gone to someone who can use it and you can use the money for something that will bring a smile to your face. At least he managed to use it to get out to Malvern. Just watching the racing from Goodwood, watched it yesterday too where they had great fun trying to get one horse into the stall. In the end the others went off without him. I've got today's Mail with the next part of the Du Maurier story and I'll willingly post it to you if you want. Xx

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  3. Hugs to you. I am sorry you are having an off day. I have cheered myself with 6 chickens.

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  4. Good for you! I quite miss having chickens but at Ynyswen we had Polecats and they could get in through the tiniest hole.

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  5. I'm glad it is sold. It is better to have things with sad memories gone. You should write an article for those first person accounts they have in some newspapers about your experience of seeking military funding. They sound like they deserve some public shaming. We have had rain, it has brought the smoke down to the ground and presumably run off as ground water. I have a cross stitch puffin Christmas ornament I'm working on, I makes me smile each time I look at it, even though I made a mistake and the perfectionist in me is going to have to unpick it. Only a few rows thank goodness.

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    1. No to the article. I just want it behind me as it was quite distressing. Fancy you working on a x-stitch puffin Christmas ornament too! Well will have to compare notes :)

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  6. I was able to access the Daily Mail and read the whole article you referenced. I've read at least one biography of Daphne du Maurier--something by one of her daughters--or sisters [?] as well as her 'Vanishing Cornwall' and of course 'Rebecca', Jamaica Inn' and 'The King's General.'
    She had a leaning toward the 'dark' with some characters in her novels that one wouldn't enjoy knowing. in person.
    Its been awhile since I've re-read 'Rebecca'--did we ever know the name of narrator, the young second wife? I remember that the sequel, 'Mrs. De Winter' was a very flat piece.

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    1. Oh good. I have read the same books as you. I think she was a complex character and her father didn't help her emotional development by the sound of things. Rebecca's successor is never named is she? That in itself tells a tale I think . . . I don't think I read Mrs de Winter and probably won't bother now! Anyway, the new film is really worth watching.

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  7. Good news about getting the scooter sold and gone.
    Have to admit to never reading Rebecca or anything about Daphne du Maurier - there are some big omissions in my reading history!
    We have at last had proper rain in Mid Suffolk but I can now see I really need the gutters cleaning out.

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    1. WOuld you believe, he went to try it and the battery is flat! Yet I charged it the day before and it scooted up into my car with no trouble.

      So glad you finally got proper rain. Tam had their gutters repaired but they still overflow . . .

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  8. Books of our youth. Mrs Danver, the wicked housekeeper in Rebecca I remember well. Also Maurier calling bungalows in Cornwall, 'bungaloids' because she hated them so much.

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    1. I have never been keen on bungalows either. In Ireland, they are the dwelling of choice - who wants old cottages when you can have a smart bungalow? Yes, indeed, books and films of our youth. Laurence Olivier and Joan Fontaine in the black and white version of the film.

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  9. I’m glad the scooter has been re homed, I can understand your sadness.
    I do admire the way you cope and adapt - not always easy when you are grieving.
    I’ll look forward to seeing the puffin project.
    Alison in Devon x

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    1. I suppose I just give myself a shake and get on with it. The odd glass or two of wine doesn't go amiss on occasion . . .

      The puffin is going well. I will do the head before doing the chest and rest of it.

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  10. Yes, letting something go that has strong memories of a loved one is hard and very emotional, but a good move for you.. loved the book Rebecca, I might look up the film.

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  11. I'm glad the scooter has finally gone, and that the money from it will help towards keeping you warm this Winter. I'm sure Keith would have approved.

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